I still make tiny mistake in my work and im trying so hard to iron them out , i have bouts of crippling self doubt about if im any good at it! haha im assured everyone does and that im a good mason, i know the only person who can really re-assure myself is me , but when you know all the tiny imperfections youve marred the stone with even if there not visable to average bystander it just comes down to "its within tollerance" but u cant help but think " it should be better " and "i should be better"
i know these things take a long time to master. . .
wit money worries gone and everything smooth at the moment i can concentrate more on what i want.
i have a year to train for the next compertition, so as of today im giving 200% more with speed accuracy and commitment, this is my last chance , last year was a practice and i want to make something of myself , and not dissapoint the ones i aspire to be like.
Its all going to change, i promise myself this.
i will achieve my potential and that is an amazing mason.
gonna give it my all this last year.
ive got nothing to lose
wish me luck.
